another ordinary day. i was suppose to be helping out in college but instead i overspelt till 3pm. how fun is that? i actually fell asleep at 6am when i was suppose to leave the house at 7.30am. interesting no?

so yeah. went to have my hair cut, walked around 1u, go back, picked sy and sarah, get groceries from tesco, pasar malam for fruits then back home. see ... thats all!! omg ... i should like stop blogging! my life is so un-interesting. yay!!

sigh. will be the restaurant manager for class later. had a long weekend thinking of what to do and yeah, what to do. so finally figured out everything, last minute as usual. dum dum ti dum...

so yes. life has been kicking me in the butt and telling me to move on. yes i have been moving on and yes its not as easy as everyone assumed it to be. to be honest, i cant seem to actually get rid of the past from me. as hard as i may try, it will still haunt me. like really haunt me as i cant stand it anymore. every single night i fall asleep, every single thing i do, it just ... bites me in the ass all the time.

eventually ... soon ... i will realize that this is all a dream. ill just wake up from this terrible nightmare and be free from this dreadful feeling. maybe i got into a car crash and im in a coma now. this is just a coma dream. trying to wake up but cant. maybe when i finally find myself then i could wake up. maybe. just maybe.

nothing seems to matter anymore. i wish i had a million dollars. so i can go to the club every single night and drink my sorrows away. i hate my life. i wish i was dead.

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